But what about the times when the bad gets to me? Those times where you feel like your heart feels like it's about to get ripped from your chest and you want to scream so loud but you know you can't...what about those times? Times when you are faced with a choice of choosing between doing the right thing or doing the wrong. Times when you feel like you can't get any lower that you feel like life isn't worth it. Times when you go against everything you believe in and take on the role of someone who you would never identify as yourself. Where are your angels then?
Right now I am sitting in my dorm room alone. But I know better than that. I'm not alone. First, I know God is looking down on me, keeping a protective eye on his little girl. Second, I know that the Holy Spirit is in me. Third, I know that angels are flooding my room. Finally, I know that the demons are right outside my door, seeping through the cracks trying to make there way into my mind. Whether you believe this or not, you are constantly surrounded by the good and the bad. Angels and Demons.
Church on Sunday night focused on the subject of demons. I got a whole new perspective on what demons looked like. The media plays demons off to be Satan's little helpers with horns and tales and sharp teeth who carry around pitch forks (or whatever you call those pointy things). But the truth is, we SEE demons daily. We FEEL demons daily. They are our thoughts. They are our temptations. They are the things that make us feel hatred, pride, lust, and all the negative things that we feel towards others. Demons come in all ways, shapes and forms, and it is our job to realize what they look like- to recognize the demon when they knock on our door.
Satan is smooth. He knows what makes us tick and what makes us give in. C.S. Lewis wrote a book called The Screwtape Letters. If you haven't read it, I highly suggest it. It's an easy read but it has such an intense message behind the story. It's a series of letters from a demon (Screwtape) to his nephew (Wormwood), giving him advice on how to stray a human from finding Christ. It's an ongoing process of little things that the demon does to slowly try to get the human away from where he needs to be. It's so interesting because we never look at demons from their perspective. There is an continuous battle between angels and demons in the world. Right now. As we speak. In the lives of every individual, demons do everything they can to get us as far away from God as possible. Through alcoholism, sex, drugs, gossip, hatred toward enemies, or things even like depressed thoughts, demons try to get us where it hurts. There's one thing we have to realize...these things don't come from God. No matter how bad we tend to blame God for putting us in these situations or letting bad things happen, these things do NOT come from him. Nothing bad comes from God for God is love. Obviously we live in a world full of demons, but our job is to find the light in this darkness.
Satan's goal is for us to define ourselves by our darkness. Recently for me, that's what I've been doing. I've focused on all the negative things going on in my life and how I feel about it that I get to a place where forget who I am. So who am I? Jesus didn't come down to let me to be continued to be defined by my sins and my sorrows. He came to save me..to wash me clean. Because of Him, I can now be defined by my REDEMPTION through Him. That's why God sends us angels. They whisper in our ears to give us the strength to go against the grain and against what the world is telling us to do. They carry us when we forget how to walk when we've become so weak by our internal thoughts and emotions. Our job is to let them carry us. It's a choice. We decide who we listen to, whether it be the angels or the demons.
We are all sinners and we all fall short. But the thing is that we have that redemption. If we believe that it's real, that there is a war going on inside of us and that we have Jesus on our side, and believe that whole heartedly, we will be cleansed white as snow. It is not impossible. We can get that healing through Him and ONLY through Him.
You're never alone. You just need to chose what surrounds you and what you let get inside of you.
You're never alone.
